7.31

elixir i invented today:

-ice water

-lemon juice

-sea salt

-honey

-mullein leaf extract

yes it’s true i’m healthy

i-D magazine asked via instagram this week to rank the lorde albums and the comment section was quite torn. after much thought here is mine:

1. pure heroine

2. virgin

3. melodrama

4. solar power

400 lux is her best song FINAL ANSWER

it is the platonic ideal of a pop song

last night gabe came home while i was getting ready and she said “are you partying tn” and i said yes how did u know.. and she said you’re playing lorde and have the hallway light on! & that made me smile

i think i could whip out a definitive top ten rankings of her songs right now. and i’ll do it because i love you guys

1. 400 lux

2. white teeth teens

3. supercut

4. love club

5. A world alone

6. hammer

7. what was that

8. shapeshifter

9. writer in the dark

10. man of the year

actually idk but something like that

7.30 2

had a legitimately amazing day today seriously…got to disappear from my desk at work and talk to @foreverdirt almost all day which we all know i needed. we are two women who are decisive about how the world works so when we decide on something together it is just simply the truest thing that can possibly be said. my head feels screwed back on frankly. i am seriously that one girl who does nottttt play about her work besties

so far this week i have spent $1.50 on a soda and that’s ALL because i am a financial genius. tonight i am going to a rave situation which will be $10 but i believe that will be my last purchase before payday. i like the challenge of spending (little to) no money it’s fun. i’m excited to go out tonight, my natural rhythm is to lay low on tuesday nights and basically treat myself like i’m sick for full recharging purposes. last night i finished my book and had a really nice dream where i was in baltimore so i’m just feeling good now idk sorry

i am reconsidering leaving my job because i like it now that i have tasks to do. and that thought makes me feel relieved so maybe that’s my answer. peace sign

7.30

just found out on MSN that frontenac mall movie theater and el burro loco in CWE are closed now...they are targeting Places I Used to Go to Sometimes and i'm sick of it

the theater is extra sad bc they were really the best place to go to for indie films. i saw past lives, i'm still here and problemista there which are all bangers. i will say that the audience is almost always very loud and obnoxious which i will not miss. RIP plaza frontenac cinema if love could've saved you you would've lived a little bit longer

7.28

yesterday i went to the beach alone and had a good time. cried a small amount because my life is changing so much and i'm becoming more aware that this summer will come to an end eventually. i think i have a solid month of swimming left but lately my sadness has been peaking well in advance of the end. when b was here he was supposed to leave on wednesday morning and on sunday i cried for hours straight in anticipation #reallover

but then tuesday came and i could just be happy and enjoy myself instead of feeling dread like i had anticipated. and i think that's what's happening here tbh! mourning summer early. i am nothing if not On Top of It always

today i am listening to albums at work and rating them on

rateyourmusic.com/punkreflex

then i will go to pinball tn to celebrate 6 months of pinballing :D

on thursday i'm going to see eddington with grace which i'm glad about because i bet that one's better to watch with people. and then there's dazzler beerstravaganza on friday which will be a movie (project x) then australian football saturday morning and kids/piracy show that night. then bay faction next tuesday which i'm really excited for. i'm going alone to that one because this is one of my bands from high school and i need the space to be cringe if it gets to that point. i just love them idk. they were so edgy to me as a teen and the watered down pop stuff they're putting out now is still fun too, i don't mind it. then i'm going to detroit at the end of august for labor dayyyyy which i'm starting to get excited about already. detroit the city of love rival to paris & baltimore and everyone is saying this

i am really into the new awning self titled album right now and it feels important that everyone on here knows that. every day i've been like "i need to tell flounder that i like this album" for some reason

the punkreflex albums of the summer are:

self titled by awning

alien lanes by guided by voices

pet sounds by the beach boys

coastal grooves by blood orange

fun trick noisemaker by apples in stereo

virgin by lorde

however the official song of the summer is pretty eyes lorraine by florry FINAL ANSWER

7.27

congrats to @moldgold for finishing infinite jest today :o

i just learned this week thru my boss that my 40 year old coworker who lives in the UK is currently 65% of the way through infinite jest. i mentioned finishing it in our meeting in march and she said she wanted to read it and has not spoken a word to me about it since. which i really respect. i'm kinda a "im letting you guys know that im moving in silence" type person

7.25 2

i feel like i need to clarify that the marble teeth show was actually a birthday party called “summerween” and if you wore a costume it was $5 instead of $10. let me know if you have any more logistical questions thank you

-emma

7.25

gearing up for a big night tonight

i'm gonna go watch the free goo man show at 5:30pm (lol) and then head to the marble teeth doorknob show afterwards at 8pm. i'm running back my fran's bday costume (theme was business casual/swimsuit) minus the swimsuit. i'm gonna say i'm hermione i think. it needed to be something lowkey bc of the goo man show but there might be other costume people there so it maybe won't matter. 6 bands for $5...it's literally like pleasure does not even need to be expensive

i have been really out on shows recently for some reason but i'm ready to be back in it. goo man is my favorite local band right now but kids is a close second. i am looking forward to checking out piracy playing with kids at cbgb next saturday and of course st louis's newest band The Dazzler the night before (!!!) this is actually the perfect time to get back into shows bc there are so many good ones coming up, i'm getting myself excited just by talking about it

7.24 2

did a solo meramec beach trip after work and i got asked if i wanted to ride a jetski and i said no #classy

but it turns out they are in an australian football league so i’m gonna watch their game next saturday because i love a niche sport #letseffinggo

solo beach trip is something i’ve been interested in doing and i’m glad i actually did it today because now i will probably do it all the time until it’s not warm anymore. i was never a summer person until a couple years ago now i’m addicted to it

7.24

considering doing a really insane thing that will be very expensive. i can't really think of a reason not to do it besides the fact that it is kind of intense and intimidating. but it would actually be the coolest thing ever and i would be sad if i didn't do it so ........

but having this on my mind makes me think i should probably shift into more of an ice soup perspective for a little bit. which is going poorly for me because every time i start thinking about sacrificing my desires i end up desiring more things. so i have to trick myself that everything's normal and chill. but i think it's a good idea to go this route regardless. i am also strongly considering moving to chicago when my lease is up next july which would also be lowkey expensive.. but there is no harm in being cost effective tbh. i don't really buy drinks out that often, i just keep a bunch of stag in my fridge and if i'm going out i have one before i leave and i throw one or two in my purse. this saves me approximately one million dollars per year. and at jay's international store they have all these flavors of ramen to choose from for like 80 cents each. i had one last night and it was extremely delicious so i'm basically going to have that all the time just because it's good. and i got 12 packets of thai tea for $3 which is also a hack. pleasure does not have to be expensive! and i have a suspicion that st louis is THE cheapest large city in the united states so i'm going to enjoy that while i can

i'm also just trying to chill more in general tbh..one of my friends who Hangs Out all the time is trying to say no more often and spend time w herself and i'm following that lead a little. i got kind of annoyed on sunday because i had a lot of interesting things to think about and i kept having to talk to people to be polite and it made me feel restless. which is my fault for doing all that at the river bday party hahaha but i didn't know literally all the instagram baddies of st louis were gonna be there too. i severely underestimated the fact that it was a kinda forreal party at castor river which is funny. but now i feel kind of quiet this week, like i don't have much to say. this kind of thing used to make me spiral, like i "forgot how to be funny" or something but it's literally no big deal. i saw ztbd and bigassbug and other homies at the show last night and it was very fun and sweet! you are watching my anxious ass learn in real time that talking to people you don't know can be mildly uncomfortable and talking to people you do know can be fun and nice. like ohhhhh that makes sense

and to be tbh i am also considering getting a new job too but we'll see...it includes a lot of traveling (20+ weeks a year) and slightly less vacation days so i couldn't be dua lipaing as much as i am. i would also probably have to send fran to a new home as well since i wouldn't be working from home at all anymore. my roommate is barely home and can't touch her since she's allergic so if i'm gone all the time then fran would be extremely unhappy. so that's something to consider. and i like the direction i'm going in at work finally (as of this week lol). i'm basically on the solutions team now and fixing all the HR data that gets messed up. it's fun and satisfying and there's enough work for me to be helpful and it all makes sense to me so i can figure out the answers to things without asking many questions. so that's what's on my mind

7.23

i have been in my position at work for 1 year, 2 months and 18 days and today they decided that they are going to train me on how to do my job. very cool

my boss also has been telling people every single day that he thinks i'm mad at him even though he has barely spoken a word to me since @foreverdirt got promoted. i have a meeting with him on friday and i am trying to figure out how to politely say "it feels like you're more interested in talking ABOUT me than talking TO me". am i cooking or no. literally all he has to do is say "how are you" and i would be honest with him i swear

something i'm really into right now is smoking weed and going on a run in the alleyways of my neighborhood. b kept earnestly insisting that st louis is every european city and he is right. not to be corny but i'm glad i have my european travels behind me—i had fun & learned a lot and now i can recognize the aspects of st louis that fill the same space and i don't really feel the need to return. there is so much to look at here and it's beautiful sorry!!!

here are the bangers from my costar today:

-your main challenge right now is to question your life path

-this month be ready to be less interesting

-be grateful for this, too

-pleasure does not have to be expensive

consider these teasers for what i will be talking about in the future.

because they read my mind

7.22 2

prerun dinner: tj vegetarian canned chili, stag, dark chocolate pop kek

7.22

agree with @james that this is the best summer ever of all time so far

family dinner was good and normal last night actually, i think it's all gonna be fine and it's not something i need to worry about. afterwards i went on a long walk/run at dusk and it felt awesome. i need it to be summer forever i really like being outside and sweating

7.21

purchased tickets for two separate trips to detroit for this year! at the beginning of 2025 i did not anticipate being posted up in michigan like this. i really think sufjan needs to make a missouri album bc then he will have albums for the only states that matter (peace + love + smiling to flounderers in other states)

i can't remember how much i've talked about my sister on here but she got married in october to a non-christian man and no one in my family came to the wedding except for me bc of that...and now they are getting a divorce and we are having family dinner tonight for the first time since that info dropped...the first inklings i heard about this were actually from @foreverdirt at fran's birthday which is bizarre but i think that's the one person in the world i would want to hear it from first. miss dirt realized my sister changed her tiktok name to her maiden name and when she pulls stunts like that it always Means Something. it's so fucking stupid actually like girl whatever. but tonight will be very interesting and will probably make me sad in some complicated way

yesterday i thought a lot about my childhood and my upbringing which i have been doing much of recently. i went on a 4 hour walk on friday night to think about my whole life and my future and it was somewhat productive. having someone stay with me for an entire week was actually deeply satisfying because it was the most authentic portrayal of who i am and what my life really looks like at this moment in time. i lowkey feel completely known & understood and now i feel prepared to really start on the next phase of my life. it is hard for me to make changes/take risks but i feel up for it right now. maybe no huge decisions yet but i'm ready to have a very open mind about where i'm going next

it's always been hard for me to divorce myself from the baptist mindset bc it is so woven into my worldview but i really can't do that shit anymore! it's at least good to know that my parents won't come to my future wedding either? because there's no way i'm marrying someone who is religious enough to their standards. i'm glad it won't be coming as a shock for me, i'm pretty much over it by now. i did some ****** at the river yesterday and it healed the sensitive stomach that i've had for over a week. i realized how different i feel from the beginning of this summer when i first went to castor river. last morning i prayed for the first time in months and it felt good. i did it again this morning and then i had a dream that i got exactly what i want. the thoughts i kept anxiously looping back around to last week don't seem to bother me anymore. i don't really know what this means but i generally feel optimistic about the whole thing

7.20 2

i can’t believe my girls by animal collective is the song of the summer for the 16th year in a row

7.20

my favorite string bikini is taking a beating from all the swimming + river currents + sand but i’m telling myself it’s chic in the way that the olsen twins have beat up birkins bc they are actually using them for their purpose. we tell ourselves stories in order to live

i was working on a “things i find chic right now” list last month, here is what i came up with:

-wearing an undershirt

-wearing perfume that people can smell when they walk past you

-several muji pens in each room of the house so you can always write things down quick

-flossing every day

-getting married after 30

-live albums

wait let’s make it list day today. here is a list i found in my room that B and i made for my work from home day

TO DO:

•wake up 6:50

•7:00 clock in

•wash sheets

•pavement movie

•send emails (byron) > call

•work on speeches

•read 10 pages

and we were dead serious

7.19 2

going to castor river with a bunch of people tomorrow so i got some fucked up snacks from the new international grocery store i discovered yesterday. i used to be so embarrassed when my mom brought weird snacks but now i’m like i hope y’all fuck with pop kek and Бублики idgaf!!!

7.19

books i got at the used bookstore today:

-eugene onegin by alexander pushkin

-delta of venus by anaïs nin

-after the ecstasy, the laundry by jack kornfield

-existentialism: from dostoevsky to sartre by walter kaufman (contains all of notes from underground which was what i was looking for lol)

-pilgrim at tinker creek by annie dillard

valid or no !

7.18

st. louis is extremely the best city ever

7.17

something about my job is that there is never enough work to do. foreverdirt has ascended the ranks in [company] so i am the sole person performing the job tasks and it's starting to feel like enough to flesh out to almost half a day of work. which is making me happy because i'm using my brain and feeling somewhat productive at the end of the day. except now they are hiring TWO people as replacements, so soon i will maybe have even less work to do before. which is terrifying. this is why i read infinite jest, i needed structure in my life and something to work towards. once they hire these mofos i will need to go reading calendar mode so bad it's not even funny

7.16

hi flounder it's punkreflex do you remember me

i dropped byron off at the airport today and tbh everything in the world makes more sense than it did before. i cried this morning but mostly out of appreciation. that was something extremely beautiful and meaningful to me and i am so grateful to have experienced it. it ended up being even better than i had pictured in my head which is impressive because i thought about it almost constantly for so long. it's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that someone like that exists in the world, we spent a lot of time just staring at each other. i think i will have a little more i am willing to say publicly but for right now i'm going to enjoy feeling really happy & relaxed. ok thanks bye!

7.8

cute australian man coming to my house TODAY

castor river shut-ins TOMORROW

fran's birthday FRIDAY

they're saying this is the most exciting week in the history of america idk

7.7

the two best songs in the world today are watch me jumpstart by GBV and easily fooled by pavement. yep

has anyone researched the healing properties of a cosmic brownie yet

7.6

saw my most intense ex from college at tschüss x sorority house bikini night. my life is a teen drama and not a very highbrow one

7.5

this passage makes me want to do backflips

“In his forty-third year William Stoner learned what others, much younger, had learned before him: that the person one loves at first is not the person one loves at last, and that love is not an end but a process through which one person attempts to know another.

They were both very shy, and they knew each other slowly, tentatively; they came close and drew apart, they touched and withdrew, neither wishing to impose upon the other more than might be welcomed. Day by day the layers of reserve that protected them dropped away, so that at last they were like many who are extraordinarily shy, each open to the other, unprotected, perfectly and unselfconsciously at ease.

Nearly every afternoon, when his classes were over, he came to her apartment. They made love, and talked, and made love again, like children who did not think of tiring at their play. The spring days lengthened, and they looked forward to the summer.”

7.4

am getting rid of all the clothes that i never wear & make me feel bad and in the process i tore up my room so much that i had to sleep on the couch last night

went to a dinner party with alexis last night in soulard and it was lovely! i love being in soulard it feels like an island. or another borough of st. louis. it feels far away even though it’s a 12 min drive from my house. we sat on their huge balcony and watched the arch fireworks from afar. i’ve been dreading fourth of july because it’s so loud but these ones were silent from far away and it was perfect. we listened to american pie which struck me once again as a beautifully written song. i loved it as a kid and i love it more now. i respect that it’s almost 9 minutes long, they honestly should’ve kept going

7.3

i bought the tomato vine mrs meyers cleaning spray last night at target which i'm excited about..i've been rocking with the rain water one for a long time but it's time to switch it up. i put it back on the shelf for awhile bc the thing about tomato vine scent is that a main note is literally dirt lmao. do i want to be cleaning my kitchen with dirt smell.. but tomato scent is so nostalgic for me i'm crazy about it!

when i was a kid my family helped take care of an older woman in our church who lost her husband in the korean war. we used to go over there to keep her company and pick tomatoes from her giant plant outside. i remember being able to stand fully inside of it as a kid and the smell was overwhelming. i liked in hiding there, i was shy and she didn't speak english very well and sometimes i would get overwhelmed. she had a giant portrait of her husband in her living room that she would stand by and it would make me unbelievably sad.

but she always sent us home with these korean melon hard candies. they are a distinct flavor that is indescribable, i've never tasted anything like it since. they were a light green sphere with a wispy white stripe like a marble. i used to study the stripe before i ate it. i've looked for them multiple times throughout my life but i've mostly accepted that i will never have those specific ones again. she passed away a couple years ago and it still makes me tear up to think about, i don't fully know why

but i believe that was my introduction to the concept of regional flavors which i am obsessed with. in idaho they have huckleberry everything. it's wonderful because it truly tastes like a brand new berry you've never had before. the uninitiated think it's just blackberry but it's not, it's something you can't even imagine yet. i found a huckleberry seltzer at whole foods once and i freaked out because it was the first time i've ever seen huckleberry outside the PNW. it is truly an untapped flavor market. i would love to see it more here but i think it's beautiful that it's so contained to that region. in berlin i tried a fruit in a nightclub that i had never heard of before and couldn't pronounce. i can't remember what it tasted like, only that i liked it. i have hope that i'll come across it again and

it will transport me back to that moment. i had just eaten this mysterious fruit and then i turned to james and said "let's put our shirts back on and get the fuck out of here". we bought beers at the corner store across the street and drank them fast before the train ride home. that is a moment i would love to relive

7.2 2

poetry and rage tonight was awesome. went alone and ended up clocking gags (in the words of james) with @bigassbug for 5 hours. i need to learn when to go tf home. but i like reading my poems out loud it’s exciting! and it feels fun and special to have poetry and rage exclusive poems. you will have to hack into my teams chat with @foreverdirt in order to get your eyes on them

7.2

my visitor from detroit comes in less than a week! i can't believe it. i decided i'm not going camping this week anymore. i think i will go on some walks alone with my thoughts instead. maybe do a little smiling to myself. i'm very excited and it will be a lot of fun

i like the pavement songs that reference diseases. malaria in stereo, "small pox in the sudan" in give it a day. i am taking my pavement list very seriously because it gives me something to do at work. the other day i told sydney that i am slogging through the back catalog of terror twilight: farewell horizontal which is the roughest of all the deluxe albums. she said "yeah i noticed you had some bullshit on in the car but i wasn't gonna say anything" lmaooo

sat out on the balcony last night and wrote two new poems which i will (probably) read at poetry and rage open mic tonight. then gabe offered me "the deal of a lifetime" which was alex cooking us all teriyaki chicken and then we watch but i'm a cheerleader. and it rocked! gabe said "emma is this just based on your life.." and unfortunately it did feel like deja vu. no comment on that

similarly: sabrina on monday said "every time i listen to virgin i think of you" and it's like thank you but like

6.30 2

wore an outfit to pinball that i had to ask gabe if it was too “cookie monster hat/zendaya filipino swag” and it was ultimately gender affirming

saw my old roommate at chickfila today and we both pretended to not see each other which was honestly ideal. we will slip out of each other’s lives and that is a gift! took an old frisbee friend to pinball tonight who i never fully clicked with and it finally made sense and we felt like real friends. all is in balance..what a socially productive day. south city is st louis brooklyn confirmed

6.30

i'll be so happy during the weekend and then when i'm in the office on monday i'm anxious...what's going on. is there a cure

happy birthday to flounder user @bugleague!

6.29 2

can’t stop laughing about how merc had an improv show last night but we didn’t know the address and they weren’t responding so alexis and i tracked their location from find my friends. we rolled up to the masonic temple in the county like heyyyyy what’s up! i’ve never been so desperate to see improv on a saturday night in my life. so interesting

virgin on repeat this weekend! what a rich text i love that woman she’s a genius. i changed my mind on man of the year that’s a great song

river today was so effing beautiful i am addicted to it. merc said “this is like rock climbing except you can pee at any time” i love it i love it i love it

we kept saying “fuck everybody but us mindset” all day today for no reason it felt really good

6.29

went to the beach yesterday with G & A and made a day of it in fenton (soup dumplings, froyo, thrifting, ross/tjmaxx/ulta) A kept saying “we’re vacationing in the suburbs!!!”

today we are going to castor river shut ins which is just the mf spot this summer. i’m surprised no one has compared me to dua lipa (always on vacation)

6.27

woke up with a headache this morning (i interpret this as the life changing effects of rowen's ladder beginning to work) so i made homemade gatorade: juice of one lemon, water, sea salt. it is delicious and actually works i think. last night i agreed to go on two camping trips in july and today i'm wondering if this was foolish. i've only been camping once and i think the result will either be "i needed that" or "that was too much". only one way to find out! it will probably be good though, i'm not too worried. alexis is a pro at camping so actually i think it will be really easy and fun. i've been hitting all the other quintessential summer activities hard (swimming, eating watermelon, drinking beer) so let's throw camping in there why not!!!

i've been on a t break this week which has been surprisingly nice! i think i will end it after work today and go on a long walk. then i will shower , go to cbgb , hang out. hope that sounds good to everybody

bought a ticket to see Geese in detroit in october :)

6.26 2

someone made a tshirt for rowen’s poem 2girls. do you know how famous you have to be for someone to do that

6.26

started reading outline..rachel cusk i was not familiar with your game

two flounder excerpts that i have thought about every day:

ashley- "what do we have besides experiences"

bugleague- "i am happy on my own but i am not immune to Wanting"

6.25

being dead was so fun last night! got to defend @idi's honor by pushing the annoying guy and yelling STOP bc he was the sole person trying to mosh and kept running into them specifically. it did not work but it was worth the try. i listened to eels on the way to work today and now i am hearing it in a completely new light which is beautiful

guys i am really excited for the new lorde album this friday...i feel like i'm on her wavelength with the promo recently. i think man of the year sucks and hammer is a little on the nose but i like it. the deluxe album cover rocks. swiftologist has a really good video essay breaking down her rolling stone interview which i've been thinking about recently. she's been saying interesting things re: growing up and being in your body. she said that when she was younger she was always choosing someone to be god and she never let herself be truly alone. and that you're in the same body your entire life. "these arms climbed the jungle gym. they held an award on a tv show" i don't even think i have anything particular to say about that, i just like it & i've been thinking about it. i really take issue with some things she's said recently (esp the pamela anderson thing) but i just have grace for her idk, i think she is very obviously just trying to figure everything out and i appreciate how vulnerable she's being with this album. i think it will contain interesting ideas even if it's not a banger all the way through

6.24

womens sports are always more fun to watch than mens sports. no exceptions

i love my new haircut! my mom always told me i couldn't do layers because it would make my face look too round and now i'm realizing that that held me back from having a cool haircut for my whole life. wtf

6.23

i went swimming in the river far away with my friends yesterday and today i'm getting my hair cut at sabrina's house after work. quaint

6.20

today i got 5th in a puzzle competition, took a fireball shot and then made bracelets with my friends. we are so up

6.19

fran just fell off the bed but she didn't even move. it seemed like a trap door situation

gabe and i have been putting up big hours on the balcony this summer so far. i love summer because school is out and she's home way more. this morning we sat in the sun and discussed plans for fran's birthday (!) july 11th. write that down

last night during dinner we talked about how we are each other's favorite person to make laugh. sometimes we'll have guests over and i'll sacrifice the vibe to do a joke that only gabe will laugh at but it's so worth it

6.18

having a "i hate my stupid job im gonna freak out" kind of day

have started packing my glasses when i go out bc my contacts dry out my eyes by the end of the night. it’s getting geriatric in here

6.17

got a flat tire last night #mybad so my friend is driving me to work today which is actually fun & sweet

was gonna go swimming tonight but now i have to sit at my house and reflect on my flat tire. i'm grounded. i have got to get less stupid nowwwww

actually if alexis can drive me to the river tonight i'm ungrounded #summer #sorry

i've been slowly concocting a new playlist that feels entirely representative of how i feel at the current moment but it's on apple music so unfortunately no one will ever hear it

joke i'm running into the ground today: it's not clocking to you that i'm standing on business

6.16

foolish: girl goes to mj lenderman thinking she will be alone. instead she sees Everyone<3

my dad has started “training the fish” by feeding them almost every time he goes outside so that they’re ready and waiting when the grandson comes out to the water. then he can just put his pole down and catch one easily and it will be special for him :’)

i'm excited to see people at pinball tonight! i will bring a puzzle book of some sort

my goals this week are: 1. do 100 pushups at once and 2. compile a controversial list of best pavement songs while im in office. i think i have some curveballs

6.13

ok i seriously need to start closing out my tabs out bc i keep leaving my journals open on my phone and when i click on them it clears everything out ughhh

i've been waking up naturally at 6am every day which is amazing. B said "do you think it's from the time change with traveling" and i said no i think it's called discipline

summer ins list: (everyone memorize this)

swimming

racquet sports in a chill way

friends over for dinner

four square (duh)

watching people play video games

reading at least 10 pages a day

calling your friends briefly instead of texting

poetry events

excusing yourself to have a moment alone with the cat

cigarette emoji to mean "that was some real shit you just said"