2.3
just invented this: chia seeds in kefir

last month’s innovation: emergen-c in smoothies
emergen-c in the fruit infused water at work
-this is the only fancy thing at my office they go crazy w it like orange blueberry rosemary…yeah

received bad news from my mom yesterday delivered in a manipulative way and the devil whispered in my ear “don’t go to pinball” which is his greatest lie btw but my friends called and texted asking where i was oh i needed that :’) had a fleabag funeral moment where i had cried really hard before i arrived but my friends said i looked radiantly beautiful. which was true bc i took a bunch of selfies before i left the house since my post crying face was eating

listening to the master and margarita while simultaneously reading my copy which is a slightly different translation. i’m fascinated by the concept of translation right now, i love hearing michael katz talk about translating the brothers karamazov. you have to understand the language and the characters so deeply it’s insane to think about

2.2
got a hearing test today in preparation for my surgery which was actually so needed bc i have a hard time understanding people in public…when waiters talk to me sometimes they have to repeat themselves a couple times bc it sounds like a jumble of words to me. which i guess is more of an aphasia thing than a hearing thing but i digress. my reaction to this will be to develop a vague scandinavian accent to pull out in these moments so i just seem foreign not dumb. on day 3 of snow days we started working on this accent so i already have a head start

2.1
is it insanely difficult for everyone else to leave the house right now or am i just experiencing depression :3

last night as i was falling asleep on the couch i heard my downstairs neighbors singing happy birthday :’) it was beautiful

1.29
it’s crazy how often i’m literally stroking my chin in conversations

does anyone here have opinions on master and margarita. i’m bulgakov curious

1.28
back in public after 4 snow days with my friends. i am feeling anxious

i love when i go see other people’s cats and then come home and think “damn. my cat looks old as fuck”

1.23
went to go see the anselm kiefer exhibit before it closes. had to park far down art hill and walk up to the museum. thinking about those damn rugby players tonight

why is dogtown literally a detroit simulator

1.23
inspired by pomegranateseeds: GT Dave's kombucha rankings

1. trilogy...such a classic
2. elderberry juniper. it tastes like wine
3. honeycrisp apple
4. lemon berry
5. marine greens. literally the healthiest thing you can put in your body
6. pure love (blood orange, rose, hibiscus)
7. bloom (elderflower, jasmine, violet)
8. unity (cherry, lemongrass, coconut)
9. blood orange
10. strawberry lemonade
11. vital c
12. guava goddess
13. pomelo pink lemonade
14. peach paradise
15. mystic mango
16. strawberry serenity
17. golden pineapple
18. watermelon wonder
19. sacred life
20. gingerberry
21. gingerade
22. island bliss
23. living in gratitude (pink lady apple, tumeric, carrot, cider spice)


1.21
you're welcome to @ashley for the rental car discount. everyone on flounder is welcome to my car rental company friends discount just shoot me a message. i have 5 codes i can give out per month and i never use them please help me out!

1.19
waking up post monster jam thinking about how misogyny seeps through the cracks of every interaction

was considered skipping pinball tonight bc this weekend was busy for me but pomegranateseeds is bringing tiramisu for james' birthday so i reconsidered...tiramisu and mash and then i'm out

feeling tenacious today

i love talking to my friends about monster jam. i love hearing words like Grave Digger and ThunderROARus come out of their mouths

1.15
gabe had a new years party while i was gone and made my room “the australia room” so she painted a flag and a koala with a face cutout and pin the tail on the kangaroo bc she’s hilarious. the flag fell down and i hung it up permanently across from my bed 2 nights ago and since then i’ve had a dream about australia every night…my suggestible ass smh 

everyone i’ve talked to is having a big rest night to prepare for jamestravaganza. it’s really that serious

1.14 
marty supreme is seriously awesome

agreeing with ashley that i need to not roll out of bed and log on for wfh…i didn’t even do my 3 pages yesterday which is not normal for non-vacation times. tomorrow i will be a person first and then i will log in. it is just difficult bc fran meows at me to come lay down with her in bed and it’s so hard to tell her no :’) except when i do my pages at my desk in the morning she always comes and sits in my lap. so that will have to suffice

started listening to the möbius book by catherine lacey last night and i did not know she was an evangelical christian as a kid just like me. randomly super helpful. i have anticipated this book for awhile and am enjoying it

is anyone else excited for mothbaby’s relational strengths to shine in the therapy room or is it just me…

1.13
bedrotting today in a way that is spiritually recharging. lord please bless this bedrot to my body amen

did not know it was nice outside until @lucky mentioned it on here so i went for a long walk after work and it was great. i am trying to take care of my body to prepare for james’ monster truck birthday weekend extravaganza so i think i will also have a salad later this week. i can tell the rest of this winter is gonna be good bc i keep accumulating fun plans for the next month and a half. on my audiobook grind in the majorest way rn i don’t even really listen to music anymore it’s either silence or audiobook

1.12 2
over halfway done listening to Paradise Logic and i hate it so bad. i get it’s “”satire”” but oh my god i am so tired of the female dirtbag narcissist narrator that’s in every modern lit fic novel i’m bored out of my mind

1.12
can’t sleep. work in 6 hours. here’s my to do list:
-go to bank and remove mom’s access to account
-reschedule ob appointment
-replace tires at sam’s club with sabrina 
🤘😝🤘
-replace tire sensors
-fix car stereo

1.11
have been waking up at 1pm this weekend and every time i’m like “what in the world” but it’s 7am in sydney. so that’s good, this adjusting shit easy

we got 3rd in the puzzle competition yesterday :D last time we got 5th, we cut our time by about 20 minutes this round. our sub was a star, thank you to Luke from Buy Her Candy for recommending his cousin that don’t play about jigsaw puzzles. i love st louis and how eager everyone is to help each other, my experience is that if you post an instagram story asking for help then you will get it sorted promptly!

i am feeling a little depressed though, i don’t really know what to do with myself anymore. i’m annoyed because byron was reading part 3 of white noise to me and now we can’t continue that. so now i’m spending a lot of time with the catch-22 audiobook but it’s not the same. i guess i’ll go to work tomorrow and then pinball after will be funnn but generally i feel directionless. need to get out of bed, i think i’ll walk to pipers soon. is it rude to collage in a public place or is it chill if i’m tidy with it..

also shoutout to @james for being our audience member last night, when we would connect major pieces he would say “NICE” which was genuinely very helpful. sometimes a friend will reference their flounder post and be like “idk if you read that” and then it doesn’t really sound familiar but that can’t be right because i’m up to date with everyone. i am a scholar of all your guys’ flounder journals…. genuinely flustering situation. most of the time i just need more details though then i remember

1.10
jetlag kicking my ass but my dreams are so good, i was in berlin with @james and we were about to skydive. cannot wait for next friday, i’m going to see john mulaney alone at the theater downtown (lol) but i’ll go to lucky’s preshow social beforehand. i foresee myself not wanting to leave once i’m social-ing so be prepared to push me out the door at 7pm

1.9
day 1 of america: woke up at 1pm but still got all my shit done. i rescheduled my sinus surgeries for a Thursday and Friday so i will only have to do one difficult day of wfh bullshitting thank god. it’s actually amazing that i can hack not taking off any days for 2 surgeries, i feel a lot better now. i have 8 PTO days left for the rest of the year and if i have to use them for anything besides traveling i will be going postal at CHQ

first time showering and sleeping alone in 1.5 weeks someone shoot me. some people would appreciate the alone time but not me. i spent a total of 2 hours separated from byron on the trip and i was in a bad mood that i couldn’t put my finger on and then he came back and i felt relief. i’ve always been an alone time/social battery kind of person but it feels good to be around him all the time i just love it…..he’s coming in town for mardi gras this year i can’t wait :D

puzzle competition with @pomegranateseeds and @thingsimgratefulfour tomorrow please pray we get less smoked by the old lady teams than last time

wait scratch #that merc has to write a 10 page application tomorrow who wants to compete in a puzzle competition at 6pm in shrewsberry

1.8 2
made it home! took a long nap that was probably ill advised but i wasn’t sure what to do with myself at home. need to shower but having a hard time making myself do that for some reason. maybe i’m a bit in denial that it’s really over and my life will continue on here. that was one of the best things that i’ve ever done, one of the best things that can happen to anybody. i can’t believe i spent a week with my wonderful boyfriend in sydney and there was never a bad moment, i felt full and happy like in a dream. i have waited my entire life to be in love and it’s just what i imagined it being like, maybe better. i hate leaving but i like that in the days afterwards i remember all the funny things we said and laugh so hard i cry. i was looking absolutely nuts on the plane today there was just too much material

i have always been an irritable person, at least some of the time, and i’m learning that it is possible to eliminate this part of me if i’m with the right people. seeing such a different way of life made me internalize that i was born into an unfortunate situation but i do not have to stay there, there are ways to be permanently happy if you make the right decisions for yourself. byron’s mom kat said “maturity is a wonderful thing, it makes life much more interesting” and i have to agree with her. meanwhile my resolution for this year is to read books and do more drugs with my boyfriend. let’s get it goin’

1.8
had the best vacation ever of all time in sydney australia paradise on earth. about to board my long flight and take a heroic dose of edible. if the pilot looks in his rearview mirror he’ll see me smiling my ass off in economy

1.7
going back to oppression land tomorrow which i’m dreading…every single day here i have thought “australia is the only truly civilized nation” 

1.1
met an american woman last night at the new years party that went to washu and then dated a russian man, moved to australia with him, remarried and now she’s been here for 30 years. gulp