###dreams
8.16
dreamt i was going to sydney in 1 month and was trying to book my ticket but the website was impossible to use and every ticket was $10,000 😭😭 but i kept trying for hours and eventually i started considering just spending that much money because i love ta go there. this is the second time i’ve had a dream like this which is interesting

8.12
i had a dream last night that my mom was polishing one of my wine glasses and dropped it on the ground and it shattered into a powder. she didn’t apologize and she told me that someone is washing their bong in the dishwasher and it’s making everything smell like bong water. i am 85% sure my mom does not know what a bong is in real life

byron was terrorized by fran this morning (real life) ((everyday life)) and after he fed her he had a dream that he shut her in the closet and held the door closed but she had super strength and busted it down. which is LOL

i think watching the lighthouse had an effect on both of us #powerstruggles

and if i watch it again this week mind your business #prometheus #1.19:1 aspect ratio

6.9
leaving the previous dream bc it makes me laugh lol! last night i had a dream where i went to japan for a week on vacation and sent my car on a boat over there so i could drive it around. i totally forgot about the existence of rental cars. which is funny because i work for a large rental car company. commander in chief of the idgaf about my job war. but one level under pseeds, whatever that’s called. and then i called Evan on the phone and he also did the same thing as me but now his car was stuck in japan and we were both freaking out. but then i bought some cute clothes in a store 🫰 but the pricing system was unintelligible to me and i stared at it for a long time. i tried to ask foreverdirt about it on text but i was struggling to describe and i woke up before i got an answer. funny how all my interactions happened over phone


4.24
in michigan i hit roommate montana's 2 ft bong as my birthday wish and subsequently was getting very high all weekend no matter what...isn't it funny how the highness can activate like that idk how it works...but now i'm back in missouri and i'm chilling on all that...and i've been having very vivid sober dreams. this dream was an alternative version of Hello Kitty Rave in Carondelet. we (me Pomseeds and M) were sooo hyped about it and we walked in right on time and it was just a tiny dance studio with a bunch of people dancing already and we were like fuckkk this is gonna be unbearable in like 30 minutes. then we went outside and some strange stuff happened. i was suddenly working a shift at [klub] {which i was supposed to be doing in real life but i called off for the jaboukie young-white show #worth} and talked to some older women at their table and was telling them about how byron is twin but now that i'm blonde we really don't look alike at all. and then i realized i was sitting down and they were all huddled at the end of the table trying to hang out by themselves and i was a weirdo waitress talking about my life. and i got embarrassed and left. and then i got in the car with my parents and we ascended this super steep staircase that would not be possible in a vehicle but i held my breath anyways and it worked. 

i keep having dreams about being in the car with my family. the other night i had one where my sister asked a pointed question about me not being christian anymore and i announced to the car "No I am offically not Christian anymore, I'm sure you were all wondering" and it felt so confrontational and over the top but then everyone else in my family except my mom admitted they were also not christian anymore. my dad said he's been feeling depressed and christianity wasn't doing anything for him and he's decided to try something else out. very unsettling because that would never ever happen in real life. other weird stuff was happening too, i was eating ice cream and i got this disgusting fish fin stuck between my teeth really badly and i thought i might have to go to the ER to get it out. one of my most bought-in coworkers came to me and said "emma, i'm just not happy here. i think i'm gonna leave the company" and i was shook. i told him about that on monday, saying "that's how i should've known it was a dream LOL" and he said yup, he's here for life. and that all his dreams are about AI, that other people have more advanced models on their phone and he panics about being left behind. which was such a stunning admission that i didn't know how to respond. who the F am i working with